It's truly Monday blues for me. I'm going to fall into depression or something. It happens to be the worst Monday ever in my life. I experienced something that I've never experienced before. A feeling that can only be said to be dark and gloomy. The feeling of parting. My grandfather passed away today. I got the news when I was coming back home. I could clearly recal, how happy I was just a few moments ago, slacking around with the blaekes of CCG. And all of a sudden this. Ignorance is really bliss.


The thing that hit me hardest was that I couldn't cry. I was and am too emotionally drained to express much emotion. Is there something wrong with me, or is it just that I'm losing it? Am I human, or is it just that there's some barrier that's preventing me from doing so. The burden still remains, with no way to get out. Without an outlet of releasing that burden, life becomes unbearable. I'm slowly being sucked into the vortex.

I didn't know my grandfather really well. He was unable to converse coherently from the time I could understand what was goind around me. But, I still loved and respected him for he is indeed my grandfather, and I hope that he would be at peace in the world beyond free of sorrow and trouble. But his death has left my family in sorrow.

My mother and her siblings are the hardest hit. I don't know how they or my grandmother are. I'm all alone at home, left alone to mope in solitude. But life is unfair. It takes away everything bit by bit. And leaves nothing untouched not does it give you anything in return other than sorrow and misery. Or is it just me?

Till then, I shall sink into the deep. Surfacing is a question mark. But I know I'll have to eventually.

P.S : I know this is so unlike me, but I'm only human.